Seems I was mistaken....

When I wrote that most of my classmates hadn't made the OT list, apparently I was somewhat wrong; it seems that all "The Girls at the table" and Tiff made the list, so they've apparently been working up a storm. For some odd reason, the news that Tiff made the list struck me hard, as did the news that he's subbing at Rideau Heights. Just this sense that i screwed up. Also, realised that I didn't reply quickly enough to the interview I had last week, so I wonder if that's now gone sideways as well.....I really get the feeling that I'm not handling this the way I should. We've been getting a handle on the house and that's certainly great, but I need to reorganize things and get both the house and job-looking happening and really get things intergrated and get back into the class room. I'd like to think that yesterday was an anomoly and that we are still on track. Actually, I don't want to even say that; we had a hiccup and things are back where we want them to be. Anyway, back to business. The emerg. supply I was called to do a couple weeks ago was great and I did well, if a bit scared at the moment of being called. It was good that I had no notice and jumped in. Just an example of trusting yourself, jumping in and knitting the net as you fall. The thing is to be prepared every day to do that thing and not let myself get away from being a Teacher. We need to re-commit on at least two fronts. I mean, everyone else has to contend with home and work, why shouldn't I? The thing is, I don't think we've been treating this like work; we've shoved it to the back of our day and then every once in a while think, "Oh yeah, I actually have to find a job..." The resume needs to be updated and there are at least two Min. of Ed. papers that it's been recommended that I read.